Sunday, September 05, 2010

I've about had it...

I am so sick and tired of being "scolded" for not putting something away or something like that when I do it all the time but those go unnoticed!!! Why should I be called lazy and told that its starting to piss her off because I supposedly never pick up around here when what was it that I did last night and the night before that and the day before that...Oh I'm sorry that your grandson has made your house look like a daycare.  There are 4 bedrooms in this house, that's right 4 and I share a room with my 7 mo old son and my husband so you and your husband can have separate offices. Then to top it off you give us the smaller room.  So don't complain to me how I need to find a place your his toys and such because there is no more room in the bed room and he doesnt exactly have his own room now does he.  If he did it would all be in there!  Just because I didn't clean up his toys in the living room that were only put there this morning be for you got home does not make me lazy nor does it mean that I never clean up around here.  Maybe if you helped me with my son sometimes and watched him I could get more cleaning done around here. 

Thursday, September 02, 2010

5 More Days!!!!

I have now been separated from my husband for nine long days and still have 5 more to go.  We haven't been apart from each other this long since when we first started dating.  Back then it would be months, I don't think I could ever go back to that again!  Before my husband Levi left for Ohio my feelings were the opposite.  I really truly believed this was going to be easy for me.  We were getting to a stage of our lives that we needed a little time apart from each other as you can tell from a past post.  I do not remember the last time I missed him this badly along with felt so in love with him.  He is truly my better half and I feel lost and lopsided without him here! Thank god for technology though!  Without cell phones and Skype I would be missing and worrying even more about him.  I am also happy at the fact that he is feeling the same way even though he is enjoying his time with his friends and family.  Levi was beginning to become extremely homesick.  The talk about moving back to Ohio came up at least once a week.  Something that I particularly do not want to do at least not yet.  I am having a hard time with the idea for many reasons.  The biggest one is on the issue of my son.  I do not want to up root him yet when he has insurance an roof over his head and food in his belly along with the fact that I love his Dr.!  She is truly a gift from God!  Dr. McClure if you ever read this you are amazing!!! You and Dr. Carter!!!  I don't know what I would do without them and I am so worried that I will never be able to replace them.  I know there are other good Dr.s out there but I will be comparing them to two Dr.s who I find irreplaceable!!  So any who, 5 more days and counting.  When that day comes I will be so over joyed it will be like giving birth to my son all over again!!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

If you want Blood you got it!

So it seems that it is 111 degrees outside here in sunny Surprise Arizona.  I arrived around 9:30 this morning which of course by that time it was already 100.  My poor little son roasting in the back seat as the sun came straight in on his side of the back seat for the last 20 mins of the drive.  Its nice being out of the house while Levi is in Ohio for the next two weeks.  Spending time with my sister is going to be questionable and gutsy.  It could end up with us giving each other hugs good by in 5 days or it can result in a blood bath and one of us dead on the floor.  Only time will tell I guess, but so far so good I believe.  So Im sitting here sippin on a Mojito enjoying the sound of the thunder waiting for the rain to fall.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

iPad-nounce you Husband and Wife

So since the creation of the computer the biggest and latest talk has been the iPad.  At Aaron and Katie Ybarra's wedding the iPad was a hit!   When my cousin Aaron said "I do" at his non traditional wedding no one didn't even noticed that there was something other then a Bible held in the preachers hands AKA my father lol.  Forgetting to print out when he was going to say for the ceremony, Aaron and Katie, already doing everything but going by the book told him to just use his iPad.  One more non traditional thing in the wedding was not going to ruin it but even better add to the wonderful day!

To start the wedding off Aaron and his grooms men walked out to the Gazebo to the Indiana Jones theme song holding his head high with pride! Then the beautiful bridesmaids came towards the gazebo to Debussy's Clair De Lune followed by Katie's younger brother prancing to the Sugar Plum Fairies from the Nutcracker as her flower boy.  Then to top it off as if couldn't get any more different, Katie came strolling down with her father at her side wearing her self-hand made green wedding dress and tri-corn hat with a beautiful parasol to the score from Pirates of the Caribbean movie.
the whole wedding party
This wedding was a total hit.  We laughed, we cried, everyone had a smile on their face even through the tears of joy!  This has been one of the best weddings I have ever been to!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Why you dont ask for opinions

So asking for opinions from friends, family members, and even strangers are apart of our daily life as humans.  Lately I've been asking for a lot of opinions about a specific topic.  My husband has finally agreed to buy me my wedding ring, it has only taken two years but yay I will finally have one.  So after searching around and doing some window shopping we have decided on the two we like the most.  The funny part though is his first pick is my second and my first pick is his second.  So to help my side out that way when I tell him the one I really want he wont argue with me I've been asking around to see which others like best. It was going perfect according to plan all until I asked my mother in-law...the one opinion that he would hold highest and the one I was counting on to side with me.  So after past opinions given that failed on my side from her I still decided to ask one more time for it once again.  Here is her answer...
"Ok, I have always been a fan of the the princess cut especially since i saw the one hilary got from her grandmother. looking at both rings, as a mom, i think the first one will be less likely to get caught on things like baby blankets, etc. The raised stones were always such a pain for me that when juli was a baby i did not even wear mine and just wore a plain gold band. both are beautiful,but i liked the floating titanium, but the possibility of the second one getting caught on things (scratching the baby, and even making the bed was a pain) is what i made my judgement on. Good luck. Enjoy, how exciting!"
Really this is the answer you are going to give me?  I didn't ask for logic I asked just a simple which one do you like best which it only required another simple reply of "I like this one better then the other" Not "this one wouldn't get caught on things cause its so plain and boring."  So I kindly replied to her in hope that I would get the simple answer I was searching for.  I said "ok well even though those thoughts were insightful i was looking more on which one you thought was prettier and you would pick if there were not all these possibilities of it catching on blankets and what not" It was nice enough and clarified the question of what I was looking for in return.
Well she replied this "i think both are very pretty tho. there was nothing about the looks that i didn't like on either one. the first one is more conventional (i like the simple streamline) and the second one is more sophisticated looking and dressy"
ARE YOU FREAKIN SERIOUS????? What kind of answer is that? Could you be anymore vague?  So I gave up.  I have now decide that for now on I will only ask my sister-in-law for her opinion because asking my mother-in-law has become a retarded thing to do!

Shew Fly Don't Bother Me!

I honestly believe the phrase so go "Shew fly don't bother me, or I'm going to kill you!"  For the past hour there has been this house fly in my room bothering the heck out of me.  It kinda reminds me of an annoying acquaintance or an stalker ex-boyfriend.  I honestly do not know why it insists on staying in my room.  I have my door wide open and do not have any lights on but I guess it feels the urge to keep me company.  Just one more thing now in my present life I am just going to have to deal with.  Why have I not killed it you might ask?  Well my darling 6 month old son fell asleep in his bed all on his own and I do not want to wake him up with me jumping around the room tying to kill a petty fly.  So for the mean time I am going to put my hair up in a pony tail, and that's right use it just like the name it was give and swish the fly away every time it gets too close to my face.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Ok so Men Suck!

This phrase has been rattling in my head for weeks upon weeks now... It has only been recently though that i have truly believed it!  Some times I really wonder what honestly goes through their heads when they speak and in their actions.  The past couple of days I have been having doubts and struggles with men...well with a certain man.  His daily routine is getting to me!  It is tough because thoughts of him not really caring or wanting to really be with me seep into my head.  He says that he loves me but with the lack of attention and affection it really makes you wonder.  I tend to think he loves other things more then me.  Then things like an ex from the past has to return into view...being such a great friend doesn't help the situation.  Then like a man he has to start spouting off about the past of regrets and feelings that never left blah blah blah...they always seem like empty words but like a girl that I am, I love hearing every bit of it since it makes me feel so special and once again loved!  This caused nothing but emotional confusion.  But on a good note every time man number one walks through the door after work my love and emotion is devoted to him even if he doesn't acknowledge me or whatever.

Sunday, August 01, 2010

Busy week finally Over!!!

Well its been one crazy week but its finally over!  My birthday went great after some few minor bumps on Thursday.  I went mini golfing and to BJ's Pizza with my Hubby, son, parents, sister, and a few friends along with my husbands uncle who was out here for work came to see us.  We had a great time! Yesterday I had my well deserved hair appointment in the morning and then headed off to my friend Jen's for some fun time.  Then of course today was a big day! I had my tattoo appointment bright and early this morning to get my tattoo redone and fixed.  No longer do I have a blob on my lower back!! Then without wasting any time I had to get ready then head back out the door for my cousin Aaron's wedding to an amazing chick named Katie.  I'm so happy for them they are truly perfect for each other.  The wedding was amazing, different, comical, and fun!  Never been to one like this before so it totally wins the best wedding of the year award! Tomorrow is the last busy day for me then I'm gonna take a little R&R.  I'm going to meet up with my sister and cut her friends hair then we are off to a co-ed baby shower.  So much has been happening but Ive been enjoying every bit of it! Now if I can just get some sleep.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


It seems that drama is every where I go.  If someone tells me that they don't go some where or wont join a group or wont talk to a certain person, or what ever else the excuse may be due to drama all I can think to as is "isn't drama everywhere though?"  I mean you really cannot hid from something that is in every part of the world.  We are human after all and drama is just one of those things that helps us make the world go round.  So lately it seems that the drama has been hitting the fan more then normal on a particular website for mothers that I am apart of.  It seems the some women want to start things up just because they do not have anything else to do which then results in good people being attacked.  My personal opinion is if you don't like it then stay out of it.  So many things could be prevented if people just thought before the spoke out but no.  It is common for many people to open their mouths and never think about inserting their foot into it when it is needed.  Also if you know that you are unwelcome somewhere then don't go there to create once again more drama.  In the end when you are all butt hurt about what happened there is no need to go somewhere and complain about it so that all can see and only receive one side of the story.  All just to get a poor you and aw so sorry from people who have no idea what is going on.  It isn't far to those who are innocent and then are punished because you blame them.  Well there you have it my post about drama....I hate drama

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Start Anew

So I have completely started over on this blog. Deleted all past post starting from April 2005 to the present.  It was nice reading my old blog since I haven't really touched it since 2006.  I was amazed on how much I have changed and what had changed in my life.  You don't realize how much you grow up until you reflect on past choices and mistakes.  So here I am, made the blog fresh and new.  Having a clean slate to start on.  I am interested to see what things I will post about in the up coming days.  This blog will be my personal blog the one what I will talk about everything that is on my mind and I mean everything!  Compared to my other blog on wordpress who is shared with everyone this one will be shared only with those who I don't mind peeking in my personal life.  This will be the blog where I will vent on everything and everyone, so no in-laws will be commenting on here lol it is best for my mother-in-law to never know about this blog!  So for those who are reading be ready for the ones filled with drama!