Friday, October 07, 2011

In the quiet words of the Virgin Mary "Come Again?"

    It has come to my attention the amount of misunderstanding that goes on in this world.  Its frustrating and aggravating that one comment can be taken to a new height of  meaning.  A lot of times instead of stopping to think or ask one what they may have meant can cause a great disaster.  In today's society majority of communication comes in the form of written words on a social site, i.e. Facebook or Twitter, or they come through your phone as a text message.  We forget that through these forms of contact sarcasm, anger, happiness, and concern cannot always be heard.  If anything they are normally misinterpreted and feelings have been greatly hurt as a result.  Things like emoticons have been a great help in this problem giving one the chance to show how their statement is meant to sound if they were right in front of us.  They have also helped in reassuring others that what they read is in fact they way they took it.  Sadly the options of emoticons is not always available.  I love to use them on my phone but the program my phone uses for them can only be seen by the products that made my phone. So if I were to use one that stated that my comment was meant as a joke but a person using a PC instead of an Apple only gets rectangles and ** in its place they will be most likely confused and misinterpret my joke there for resulting in being offended.  I have been juggling in my mind how on earth can these mishaps be corrected cause there is nothing more horrible then having an upset friend for my bad placing of sarcasm. My answer for now is to just avoid at all cost and to post only in a monotone to keep the confusion at bay. My husband always says that it is better to keep our mouth shut then to say something you have to end up explaining to someone.  I'm beginning to think hes right.  Course I would prefer a friend to ask for an explanation because they don't understand then for them to be hurt behind close doors and not allowing the problem to ever be solved.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Road Block

    Every now and then my brain feels like this Norman Rockwell painting.  I just cannot seem to think clearly or creatively.  My artistic side has been like this now for 6 years.  Even though I have had to urges to start sketching and painting again I just stair at the canvas or sketch pad with a blank stare.  I need to find some inspiration in my life or something close to it!  I think the last creative thing I painted was for my sister which she had framed and hung on her wall. You got to love your family members who will love your work with pride. Just like a mother with a her child who will put any art work they have done on the fridge.  When I was in high school my art teacher made it easy to have inspiration since it was all part of her job to give us new things to do.  Some times I wish I still had her around to give me a new project.  I just need to stop dreaming and start doing!  Anyone possibly have some ideas for inspirations for me I'm all ears.

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Our Past and the Baggage it Leaves in the Attic

     Baggage in our Attic is not always something we like to realize is there.  It has taken me awhile to even notice it was hiding up there and even longer for me to clear it out!  My past may not be as "horrible" or "tragic" as some others my have but it was still not a lovely past even though it was only 4 years of my life.   It has caused me issues that have made me paranoid and insecure.  I know struggle with the fear of no longer being loved, and  I sometimes miss interpret a cancellation as that person ditching me.  I know it sounds pathetic and slightly immature but it happens.  I am also an extremely jealous person thanks to my past.  Its funny how we never let certain things have an effect on us till we go through an experience.  Fear of rejection is in many of us. Even if we do have people around us who care and love us we still fear it.  Constantly looking for reassurance from them to know they will stand by us.  Even with the reassurance we still struggle with it like a disease.  It has brought me to tears at times.  These fears have also lead me to make some bad decisions in my life.  I still have to remember to think twice before going off my emotions and fears in choices I make.  This is apart of growing up, learning how to deal with this. Every day I need to remind myself to clean my Attic. On the days I don't, are the days I struggle with them and brings me tears and depression! First step to healing is the recognition to the problem!

Friday, September 30, 2011

The Love Fail

   I have been laying here in bed for the past 20 mins watching the first Harry Potter and I could not for get a conversation I had earlier this evening with a dear friend of mine.  It was more like a friendly disagreement, mainly me disagreeing how he viewed his love life or the lack there of.  It and will always be hard for me to understand why someone would desire to live without a companion in Love! Sure you can always have a healthy sex life, it may not be with the same person day in and day out but hey at least you're getting some right? It boggles me how that would be good enough in someones life.  I honestly feel he is so afraid of Love that he will keep it so out of reach because of the fear of a broken heart. Whether he is afraid of breaking ones heart or his own I do not know, maybe its both. Who could blame him. Anyone who has been in love and has received or given the broken heart knows how enjoyably it really isn't.  I know though that this fully grown man has more love to give then even he probably knows.  To any of his friends he is loved by them all and will be highly talked about with nothing but respect!  But is love from friends and relatives good enough?  Some may say it is, I personally feel that for 99% of this world cannot live without the intimacy of it.  People die for it for crying out loud. It is a very powerful thing, so powerful it can cause fear.  So he says why miss out on the chance from learning and having new adventures with others since that is how he feels when you are committed and tied down to just one person.  Oh but my dear the adventures and the journeys you can have with that one person will be better then anything you can ever dream!  I honestly cannot say I can live without the man I love, it would be a terrible lie.  There have been days that I felt I could walk right out that door and never look back with not a pain in my heart, but after the dust settled that would be a lie as well. I would probably curl up on my bed and stay there till my heart was as close to being healed as it could be.  To say my life would end would be a overstatement but hell it sure would feel like it for a very long time!  In the long run it would totally be worth the heartache when weighed against all the joy the love gave me. Love would surely out weigh the heartache by far!   Fear of the love ending and not following through would cause a bigger regret then falling in love and losing it!  Believe me I have gone through my share of mistakes and Love losses and even though there is one in particular I do regret all of it has brought me nothing but knowledge and wisdom along with a life filled with wonderful memories!  Never stop looking for that "true love" they do exist and will come when you least expect it! Never take it for granted, and live it to the fullest because you never know when it will depart ways with you, whether in death or just because of growing paths that split.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Last Letter to Change my World

    My last and final letter was mailed out today to my husband.  Less then 2 weeks I will be able to give him the biggest hug that has been building up for the past 9 weeks.  Life changing experiences are at foot. The wind is changing and its changing fast. Before I can say "Bob's your uncle" I will be getting ready for my first military move, which is an experience within itself!  I have always been the one planning and packing my past moves.  Having an actual company come into my home and take my own belongings, place them into boxes, then put them on a truck only having me supervise sounds like heaven to me! Course I might just bake some nice home made cookies the night before along with getting bottled water for them and order them some lunch as well. It is always good to treat those who serve you with respect and gratitude!  Just like your food you dont want it to get spit on, or in this case broken or lost.  I do plan though on driving myself and my son with a few belongings to our new home which luckily is only a 7 hour drive.  My future is so far yet so close and Im anticipating every moment of it!!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

How time does fly

     It has been 3 years today since my husband and I said "I do!" and a total of 6 years together for our commitment to each other.  You never quite realize how fast everything happens when you are younger.  I remember when I was a child how a year would feel like a millennium and the age I am now I used to think was "old".  When in fact time never passes any slower or faster then it actually feels.  When I look at my son its like watching time move.  Everyday there is something new and different about him! He grows and learns with each minute that passes.  You begin to learn new things as well, more wisdom, heartache, and happiness. It is like Love is also on a parallel line with time only the line thickens as it grows with the time line. I have less then a month till I see my husband again and I count every second that ticks by.  Not taking anything for granted.

Saturday, August 27, 2011


     As my own personal reading I chose the book Divergent by Veronica Roth and took a break from my book club readings of the Parasol Protectorate.  So here is the scoop on this new rising author.  Veronica Roth recently graduated from Northwestern University with a degree in creative writing.  Living new Chicago she has devoted her time to being a full-time writer and creating a new series of books.  Divergent being her first novel, I was highly impressed with plot.  It had similarity to the Hunger Games but is its still entirely original!
    In dystopian Chicago world, society is divided into five factions,—Candor (the honest), Abnegation (the selfless), Dauntless (the brave), Amity (the peaceful), and Erudite (the intelligent). Each are dedicated to the cultivation of a particular virtue. When a child turns 16 they are to select the faction to which they will devote the rest of their lives on a particular day of the year. A young girl named Beatrice Prior, is faced with the decision of staying with her family and being who she really is where in this world she sadly cannot have both.

     This book was extremely easy to read and never lost my attention! I will say it is meant for younger readers like teens or young adults. Roth throws some very exciting moments that will keep you turning the pages. I give it a 5 out of 5 for being so captivating! I enjoyed every bit of it and do believe She is off to a good start with this new series. Am looking forward to Insurgent, the sequel she is working so hard on. Ok now back to reading Heartless by Gail Carriger.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

When Infatuation turns into Love

     I am a soul believer that infatuation always comes first.  There is no such thing to me as "love at first sight" but there is surely infatuation at first sight.  Love doesn't come that easy and if it did well then I do not believe there would be as many failed relationships in this world!  Even when you find love you still have to work hard to keep it.  Maybe never even really realized how much you truly love someone till things like suffering, heartache, and sacrifice happen in that relationship.  I have always known that I love my husband, even when he is being a fool and I can't stand to be around him I still love him.  Until recently I thought I knew what love was completely, but it turns out you will never stop learning about love! It is something that grows like wisdom does.  My husband has now only been apart from me for 3 weeks and I still have 1 month 2 weeks and 6 days till I get to see him again.  I am already feeling the strain and stress of our separation while he is at Army Basic Training across the country.  My love for him has definitely been proving itself to me.  I hear about the sad stories of men and women already receiving Dear John Letters in basic training.  Come on people, seriously? It is only a 10 week separation that doesn't even compare to the year separation for deployment.  The soldier who received that letter may have been deeply truly in love with that person but it is obvious that they did not have real love in their hearts and only infatuation. Cause the truth is people, infatuation cannot survive long distance!  It does not last in hardships and infatuation does not know the word sacrifice! These are ways of knowing if you are truly in love with someone!  Being apart from my husband has strengthened us.  This is a sacrifice we are both making for the greater good of our family's well being!  There is nothing or no one who can change my mind, make me weak in my marriage, or tear us apart.  It is true when they say "Absence makes the heart grow fonder" but only when true love has his hand in it!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Hurry Mr Postman!

   It has been two weeks since my husband has left for Army basic training.  I last heard from him exactly one week ago.  He told me that he was to be sending me a letter along with some documents which I will be needing when I go get my Military ID.  Throughout this week I have checked the mail every day as soon as it was dropped into the box.  Call me the eager beaver when I see that USPS Jeep pull up in front of my house.  I get more excited now then I did when I ordered something online for my son.  But every time I open the box nothing but bills and junk mail in it.  My heart just sinks! I do know that where he is located at the base's mail system is sorted by hand and not machines.  This means it takes twice as long just to leave the base and enter the USPS mailing system.  Luckily I have his address thanks to his Battalion's FaceBook page so I have already begun mailing him a letter once a day.  Letters are already lined up and waiting to be sent since he left only it takes them just as long to get to him as his take to get to me.  On the plus side, I only have 1 month and 4 weeks left of this then its off to see him graduate!
      I have started a 30 day challenge journal that was posted on the FaceBook page.  This will be such a surprise for him to read when he leaves again for his schooling after basic.  Every day its something new to write about my memories of him.  I have never done something like this before so it has been most exciting!

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

One Year of Blogging

     It has been just a little over a year for me since I began blogging on this site.  Amazing how fast time goes.  I have read previous posts from a year ago and am amazed how much has changed.  From having a 6 month old son to now a 18 month old, who is growing oh so fast that I cannot even keep up and am trying to film everything so that his father wont miss a beat. Then there is my husband who I will be married to for 3 years on the 15th and will be together for 6.  I am sad though that he will not be around due to him being at basic training for the Army.  Though I am so proud of him in his choice to join!
     Soon my life will take another turn and will be moving once again.  We are both excited for our new move, mostly because we will be reunited there.  I am looking forward to what the next year brings.  Then to look back on this blog in even more different perspective.  Having more mature eyes with age and with experience. From now on I will be an Army wife and a mother.

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

Blameless Book 3 of the Parasol Protectorate

     I've been neglecting my reviews on my recent book club reads due to my husband leaving for Army basic training.  Been spending every last minute with him instead of my reading and blogging.  Now he is gone and I can get back to business, especially since I have all the time in the world now or so it seems.  
   Blameless was exceptionally different from the first two books.  I surprisingly was relating to Alexia more in this one the in Soulless or Changeless.  The maternal and marital experiences she goes through was the reasoning for my own emotional attachment to her.  Gail Carriger really did an amazing job at making this story so different and unique, giving Lady Maccon a new adventure that never seemed over the top or down right ridiculous to read.  Still keeping with her comical graces and outrageous hats that never get old, this book is by far my favorite out of the bunch.  Of course I am still in need to read the remaining of the series.  Now due to me not wanting to give ANY of the story away to those who have not read any of these books I will not be writing any details down about Blameless, don't worry folks I do not believe in "Spoilers", said in River Song's accent.  If you don't know who River Song is well then  it is time to watch some Doctor Who!
     Over all it is an obvious 5 star rating once again.  I am not always so nice with my book ratings but I just have never done a review on a book I haven't liked yet.  Give it time I am sure to read one sooner or later.  Course normally when I do read a book that is lower then a 5 rating I never finish it unless its part of my book club picks. 

Monday, August 01, 2011

Famous Last Dinner

     Yesterday was my husband Levi's last day with us for the next 10 weeks as he began his military journey early this morning.  My mom and I made him a special last family dinner with beer can chicken, german potato salad and my personal favorite bacon wrapped jalapenos stuffed with cream cheese.  These were actually really easy to make the only hard labor of it was cutting the jalapenos in half and cleaning out the seeds.  Everything turned out wonderful! The beer we chose for the chicken was Blue Moon Honey Wheat.  It gave an amazing flavor to the chicken and kept it so nice and moist. 
     So now, after dropping Levi off at 4 am this morning, the house has been quiet with a whole lot of dishes to clean in the kitchen.  I miss him already and it hasn't even been 24 hours since he left.  He's not even out of the state yet but only a few hours away at MEPS doing his last physical and then to a hotel till he flies out tomorrow for his Basic Training.  I honestly pray that these next 10 weeks will fly by with out any stress or complications!  I will only be able to see him for two days when he graduates but will only have a few more weeks after that for me to move where he will be.  I just hate the waiting part.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

My Wonderful Laundry Detergent

     For a good 6 months now my mother and I have been using this recipe to make our own laundry detergent and we absolutely love it.  I am not sure where she found this recipe so I do not have a link for it, but I figured why not give the recipe and show lovely pictures of me making it, minus me in the pictures.

All these things can be found at a Walmart except the bucket. You will also need a cheese grater.

Step 1:
     Cut the Fels Naptha Soap into thirds.  Grate 1/3 of the soap with your cheese grater or like me I used my grater attachment on my food processor.  You will want the grated soap to be fine for easy melting.  Take the other two thirds of soap and put into a zip-lock for next time.  So one bar of soap gets you three batches of Laundry detergent.

Step 2:

     Put grated soap in a pot with 6 cups of water and heat on low until all the soap is melted.  Do not let the soap boil!  Once all the soap is melted add the washing soda and Borax.  Stir until fully dissolved. 

After it thickens it will be frothy on top

     Remove from heat and pour into bucket.  Keep stirring as it cools till mixture is thick, almost honey like.

Step 3:
Pouring in the hot water

     Pour 4 cups of hot tap water into your bucket.  Stir the soup with the water till blended smoothly.  You can add a few drops of essential oils like tea tree oil or vanilla or really anything you wish.  You can also add nothing and still get great clean clothes its your wish.

After all the water is added and the stirring
 is done now just needs to sit overnight!

     Now add one gallon plus 6 more cups of hot tap water.  I used a leftover empty milk gallon for easy measuring.  Stir for another few minutes then let sit overnight.

Step 4:
  The next morning the soap will look runny, or gel like, or separated with big clumps of slime on top and water on the bottom.  This is normal depending on the weather you are having and soap you used.  You can either keep it in the detergent in the bucket, scooping out 1/2 cup per load or give it a good stir and funnel it into your old well rinsed laundry detergent bottle or you can purchase a nice 2 gallon beverage dispenser like I did. I bought mine at Walmart for less then $3.

This does the job great!

Step 5:
     Since I use the beverage dispenser with a spigot I had to get all the clumpies out of the soap or else it gets clogged up after a few uses.  Using an immersion blender does the job to make it nice and smooth. Im sure you can also poor amounts into a food processor or a normal blender to smooth it out as well.

     If you have a Downy Ball, you can fill it up 1/2 way with Distilled White Vinegar and it can be used for fabric softener.  If you do not have one you can add 1/2 cup of the vinegar to the rinse cycle or just go buy one at Walmart as well for only $1.37.  You can also purchase some of these things through and receive free fast shipping every time! They have amazing prices as well.

   This is a great way to save you money and be a little green too! I believe the total first purchase will be roughly $20 which is about the same for a large liquid Tide.  This price is if you buy all the extras too including the Downy Ball and dispenser.  The best thing about this price this will only be a one time high.  Any other time will only be the purchase of the Borax, washing soda, bar of soap, and the vinegar if you use it.  Like I said my mom and I have been doing this for 6 months and only had to buy 1 more bar of soap since it only gets you 3 batches at a time but the Borax and washing soda if not used for anything but the detergent will last you 6 months plus.  I highly recommend to try this especially in todays tight money societ!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Alexia Tarabotti is going Manga

It has recently been released that the first book of the Parasol Protectorate Series written by Gail Carriger is going to be making its debut as a Manga.  Soulless manga will be the next big hype surrounding Miss Alexia Tarabotti, the main character of Gail's big seller series.  This is most exciting for Gail and her fans! I sure know I am excited about it.  When I asked about her feelings on the upcoming manga, Ms. Carriger replied "I'm so excited about the manga, not every author is so lucky as to get to see their characters come to life in such a vibrant way."  The first chapter of it has been released on the Parasol Protectorate Facebook page which I have already read and loved every moment of it.  I didn't feel like I was reading Soulless word for word but instead I was able to see my visual thoughts in beautiful art work which really brought it to life.   Soulless manga is to be on shelves in 2012.

If you would like a taste of Soulless the way it was originally written not the manga here is a podcast by Artistic Whispers of the first chapter.  This is not your ordinary podcast or audiobook but more like an old radio show.  I absolutely enjoyed listening to it and it was very well done! 

Soulless By Gail Carriger ch 1, Production by Artistic Whispers

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Harry Potter and the Sushi

     Last night was an wonderful night!  My loving husband who doesn't like fantasy movies nor does he like sushi took me out for both with our friend Adam.  Even though everything was Adams idea I was glad to get out of the house and have a night off as mom and was about to be just a wife. The three of us went to Ooka Sushi Restaurant at the Riverside Plaza, CA.  The prices were very reasonable for the atmosphere that you get!  As for the food, it was absolutely delicious!  All three of us ate till we were full  and brought home left overs.  There wasn't much when it came to the left overs but there was some.  Next time I do plan on just going there for desert! After dinner we went out on their patio and enjoyed the live music that the Plaza had in its main street while finishing up our drinks and letting our food settle.  This was very relaxing and entertaining.
    Off to the show when all was done and eaten.  Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2, the end to the big series.  The biggest shocker for me was that my husband who always falls asleep during any movie that is fantasy based stayed awake for this one the entire time.  Over all I enjoyed this movie and is pleased with the production with only a few minor complaints.  The length of the movie is 2 hours 5 mins which I found to be a perfect running time.  You never get bored or a sore butt, and  right when you think you are in need for a bathroom break the movie comes to the finish.  I highly recommend this film for all fantasy lovers but I wouldn't suggest doing so before watching or reading all the rest or else you will be lost in the story line.  My husband has "seen" all the movies since we own them but still he is always asking me questions on whos who and which one is the bad guys and what the heck is Gringotts.  So spare your friends or loved ones you go with and do some catching up first before you go see it!

Friday, July 15, 2011

What's That Your Baking? Part 2

     In the past two days I have made to very successful breads.  Using my trusty King Arthur Flour and their recipe I produced the most delicious Italian Bread for my dear pregnant friend Chelsey.  This certain bread is from the King Arthur Flour "The All-Purpose Baking Cookbook" and takes well over 18 hours to make.  I began the starter around 11:30 Wednesday evening and let it sit covered for 16 hours.  From there I added the rest of the ingredients using my bread maker as the mixer then transfered the dough into a large lightly greased mixing bowl and covered to rise.  During this rising process I would fold the dough and flip every 30 mins for a total of an 1 hour and a half.  After the time was complete I then separated the risen dough into three equal balls rolling them out into a 20 inch snake like roll.  With the 3 rolls complete they were braided together to form a beautiful ready to bake loaf.  Covered for another hour to let another rise compete I preheated the oven to 425 degrees.  Once the hour was over I egg washed the loaf and stuck it in the heated oven for 25 to 35 mins.  I have learned that the best way to know that you have the perfect loaf is by using an instant read thermometer to see if the bread has reached 190 degrees internally.  I have yet for that theory to be proven wrong!

The Finished Project!
     Today was a new baking adventure.  A few days back I started a sourdough starter using a King Arthur Flour Sourdough Starter recipe online.  I really liked this starter due to how simple it is and not needing to discard half of it everyday to feed it.  Actually I had this starter now for 4 days and did not have to do anything but stir it once a day with no feeding.  When it was time to make the bread the starter was roughly around 2 1/2 cups.  Needing only 2 cups of it for the bread recipe I left the remaining 1/2 cup in the container it was originally in and fed it with 1/2 cup water and 1/2 cup flour then placed it in the fridge to slow down its process.  Now for once I didn't use a KAF recipe for the actual bread but one from Chef John Mitzewich.  I took the 2 cups of starter that I set aside and poured it into my bread maker pan.  Then I mixed 2 cups (8 1/2 oz) of flour 1tsp. sugar 2sap salt 2 tbsp of olive oil in a small bowl then gently poured it over the starter in the bread maker pan.  I set my bread maker to a medium white bread setting and let it rip.  While it mixed and kneaded I began to add roughly 1/2 cup of flour one spoon full at a time letting it mix efficiently.  Now this 1/2 cup isn't an exact measure it is an estimate, adding just enough till the dough looked smooth and had the proper consistency of a bread dough.  Close the lid and let the maker do the rest.
Beautiful Sourdough!


Tuesday, July 12, 2011

PC Challenged

     All my life of computers I have only owned Apple products thanks to my loving father.  I remember the first one he ever brought home too.  Black and white screen and slower then molasses.  So in the next few months I will be making my first purchase of a laptop but do to trying to keep a budget I am afraid that I will have to join the PC world and wait for my dream Mac when the time is right.  Now I have a problem, I have no idea how or even where to start when it comes to picking out the right PC laptop.  There are so many brands and I know nothing about any of them.  I was considering just buying a netbook to just hold me off till I can afford what I really wish but non have a DVD/CD drive.  
      I'm asking for you PC owners out there for your help! Give me some point of direction! The things I need for it to do is simple.  Play movies, get on the web, and the ability to sync my iPhone with iTunes.  I also will need it to hold all my photos of my son and family along with any home videos we make of my son to share with the rest of my family while we are away from them.  Please help me in my journey of buying a computer!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Changeless: Book 2 From The Parasol Protectorate Series

It only took two weeks for my book discussion group to finish the second book in the Parasol Protectorate series and the sequal to Soulless by Gail Carriger.  This review on Changeless will start by sharing my little conversation with the author herself on twitter:

     "Time to start Changeless by @gailcarriger so looking forward to what this story is about and what Alexia Tarabotti will do next"
     "@AngYbarra Hope you enjoy it."
     "@gailcarriger finished the first chapter and you already had me lol with the Gamma and Alexia and of course with Ivy. I <3 her and her hats"
         "@AngYbarra I must say Ivy is one of the most fun characters to write."

Gail is probably one of the most genuinely nicest people I have met via twitter! She is always sweet in any of her @Mentions to me and willing to answer any of mine even if I do not except a reply!  I do also enjoy her tweets on steampunk, tea, and retro fashion.  I highly recommend to follow her! I also love the fact that she willingly followed me just because of the fact that I was tweeting about her books and @Mentioned her in them.

Now back to the book.  It topped the first for sure! It was clever and witty along with suspenseful and adventurous. The plot starts only a few months where the first book Soulless leaves off.  It gives a new enemy but in a way no one could ever expect after reading the first which keeps you guessing as the book unfolds it's story. I don't want to tell any details so not to ruin anything for those who have still not read the first book but this is another 5 star reader in my opinion.  I would have read it in one night if I didn't have to pace myself for my discussion meetings once a week. I will say though that Changeless has a dirigible flight adventure to Scotland, an unwrapping of a mummy, and a scandalous elope! If you are wondering what the heck is a dirigible there is a picture below.  The next I will be reading book #3 called Blameless.  So expect my blog on it in two weeks.

A Dirigible: it is a type of Zeppelin

What's that your Baking?

I have pulled out my wonderful Breadmaker and decided to try out a potato bread recipe from my King Arthur Flour cook book.  It has to be my most treasured cook book when it comes to baking! Everything I have ever tried out of it has turned out fabulous! Plus always a surprise too because there are no actual photos in it so I never really know what anything is suppose to look like.  My other favorite cook book is The Pioneer Woman Cooks by Ree Drummond.  She is absolutely funny and talented.  Everything in this book makes you drool just looking at the photo!

Now one cook book I am dying to have is My Grill by Pete Evens.  That man can cook! I first saw this book at Williams Sonoma and of course they were selling it at full price which I am such a penny pincher there is no way I would buy a book for $30 but I do plan on buying it through Barnes & Noble online since they have it at half price.  Cannot beat half price now can we!

So what cookbooks do you live by? Do you have a favorite bread recipe? Please share I would love to hear it!

Heres the promised pictures of the finished product!

Soulless The Parasol Protectorate Series


So I have began the Parasol Protectorate book series.  I recently have finished Soulless which is the first book in the series and began Changeless this week.   For those who have not heard or read Soulless let me give you a run down about the story plot.

It is about a 26 year old spinster named Alexia Tarabotti who lives in London during the time of Queen Victoria.  In this Victorian time Vampires and Werewolves were well know and established in the high society and were treated like any other daylight folk.  Now Miss Tarabotti is neither werewolf or vampire but she is in fact without a soul, a supernatural being called a preternatural.  This state of being soulless gives Alexia a few power tricks of her own. This book was absolutely wonderful the whole way through it.  The author Gail Carriger, has kept the victorian age beautifully in her book but also has add the steampunk technology and even some fashion.  It was one book that I could not even bring myself to put down! Oh and of course being filled with adventure and some horror but Gail also added the perfect amount of romanticism.  Of course the spinster does become involved in an unusual love life.  I also have never laughed so hard while reading a book.  Gail is truly talented and I highly recommend her for any good reading! So here is my mini book review for any of you readers out there.  If you like to keep up with me reading the second book Changeless I will post another review when Im done and will occasionally post about it while Im reading it on my twitter feel free to follow me @AngYbarra

Friday, May 13, 2011

I Am A New Creation

Today is the first day up at Camp Maranatha for Calvary Chapel Ladies Retreat 2011. The theme verse for this weekend is Colossians 2:9-10 "For in Him dwells all the fullness of the Godhead bodily; and you are complete in Him, who is the head of all principality and power." This evening it was discussed that through Christ we become new and God's heir. This is only the beginning though. There is so much more which is connected to this. We find love safety and shelter when we are completed by Christ. I am looking forward to see what new things I will learn and what old things I will be reminded of in these next few days a long with hanging out and fellowshipping with my friends!

Sunday, May 01, 2011

One Week Till Mothers Day

I have always enjoyed spending Mothers Day with my mom and grandmas.  Even though I do not need a day to show them how much I love them it is a great day to still exclusively show them how much I appreciate them.  Now that I am a mother myself it has become even more significant of a day.  My son my still be too young to even know this day exists but when I look at him its a constant reminder of why I am important.  The joy that being loved and needed constantly is the best feeling that no money can buy. This year will be my second Mothers Day being a mother and even though the day is suppose to be what the mothers want to do I find myself trying to plan it for my little boy and what he would like to do.  Maybe something fun and exciting for a 15 month old or even just some play time outside in his little pool.  I know that he doesn't care and will go where ever we take him without complaint but it would bring me more joy if knowing that what we do is aimed towards him.  To see the look on his face and his happiness is the best gift any mother could wish for on their day!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Old Faces Comes Old Memories

You always know that when you go to a place where everyone else in the city goes you are bound to run into someone you once knew.  Well that just so happened to me today.  I have gone to this grocery store I don't know how many times since I've moved back to my home town and surprisingly not once have I ran into someone that I would prefer not to run into, but on this particular day I did.  With in minutes of me entering the store I spotted my ex-mother-in-law.  Now she has always been nice to me even after the divorce but since the rules of my ex-husband had changed due to my recent move back I know that she was not exactly permitted to befriend me or anything in that sort.  So there she was heading towards my direction and has not yet detected my presents.  I had a choice to make, do I turn away in hope she does not notice me at all or if she does know that I am there wonder why I didn't say anything to her.  Do I let her notice me in hope that she will acknowledge me and say hi or do I just take the chance to greet her with a hug hoping she accepts it? Well I took the chance and sure enough she accepted it whether she really wanted to or not.  I will never know what exactly she was thinking but I can say that it was a pleasant run in.  I enjoyed showing her a picture of my son as we did a little catching up.  Sad to say though that what I told her today will get back to my ex and everyone else who was once a friend which even though I would prefer him not to know how great my life is doing or what is happening in it I am okay with it cause I did get to see one person that I sadly missed.  I cannot believe I actually still struggle with missing the people who were once in my life and how quickly they seemed to drop me but yet I understand why it was done.  I mean how many women out there still go and hang out with their ex-in-laws whether it was a mother or sister.  But times are changing and I have witnessed some strange things happen in the world so who knows.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

When its all said and done

When it seems the dust has all settled and it's calm after the storm is it still really free and clear or is that just a false hope in our minds that everything is ok? Life gives us ups and downs how we handle the downs is up to us. We can pretend it's not there and ignore them or we can deal with them and try to make life better. But even when we do try to make things right the problem sometimes never really goes away. Life experiences are the best teachers! We take them grow and learn from them then use what we learned in future events. I pray every night that I will do only the best I can in times of troubles. That what I do in them is what's right and won't bite me in the end.

Friday, April 01, 2011

Friend Or Foe

There is a big difference between a friend and a foe but what if you are not sure if your "friend" is also a foe.  When do you draw the line and a friend becomes your enemy.  People say friends are forever but lets be honest, as soon as this person became your friend they were already on their way of becoming a foe.  Some people don't even mind having frienemies which has never made a bit of sense to me.  I have always cherished my friends and have tried to do nothing but be the trust worthy person they expect me to be, but it seems that other people have their own agenda when it comes to making their friends and most of the time only see what they can get out of it before they leave the person on the wayside wondering what they must have done wrong.  Sadly though this seems to happen to more women then men.  My husband always says you get women together and there will always be drama.  No matter how much that maybe true I have always strive to stay clear of it and believe me it isn't an easy task! So what do you do with the people you question? Do you address the situation to them or just ignore it and let they keep walking all over your emotions.  This happens more then we wish it to and happens to friendships that have gone unquestioned for years. So who is to blame? Do we blame ourselves for sabotaging a friendship or for not fixing things when we had the chance? Do we blame the friend who had intentions of never sticking this friendship out, who lied to us when asked if something was wrong, or for hating us for absolutely no reason?  These are questions that I have always asked myself.  I am also a person who cannot just leave things alone! Once something has happened I feel the need to find out why, to get some kind of closure.  If I don't sometimes these things will haunt me, linger in the back of my head for me to constantly think about when I'm all alone. 

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

124 Days and Counting to a New Life

So much has been changing in the past few weeks I can't even seem to keep up!  It has also been awhile since I have even posted anything.  So recently my husband has been in the process in enlisting into the US Army.  Its a rather big step for anyone and even a bigger one for a small family like ours.  Worries and what ifs popped into my head like you couldn't believe.  This is something that should not be treated lightly and should be done with the consideration of everyone who it will affect. After a little bit of prayer and a lot of finger crossing he made it in.  I am mostly relieved that he didn't go in to just be in the infantry or any other military job or MOS that would put his life closer to risk and danger.  Instead I am hoping that his MOS that he did obtain will keep him far from it.  So now we are just doing the count down to him leaving for his Basic Training.  He is most likely more excited then I am that he gets to be across the country for 10 weeks away from his son and me. Hopefully I shall be able to keep myself very busy to make the time go by fast.  Then soon after basic our lives will be ever changed! With constant relocating and him being deployed at anytime the army feels that he is needed.  It will take some time getting use to it but I know that I will survive this great journey ahead of us!