Friday, September 30, 2011

The Love Fail

   I have been laying here in bed for the past 20 mins watching the first Harry Potter and I could not for get a conversation I had earlier this evening with a dear friend of mine.  It was more like a friendly disagreement, mainly me disagreeing how he viewed his love life or the lack there of.  It and will always be hard for me to understand why someone would desire to live without a companion in Love! Sure you can always have a healthy sex life, it may not be with the same person day in and day out but hey at least you're getting some right? It boggles me how that would be good enough in someones life.  I honestly feel he is so afraid of Love that he will keep it so out of reach because of the fear of a broken heart. Whether he is afraid of breaking ones heart or his own I do not know, maybe its both. Who could blame him. Anyone who has been in love and has received or given the broken heart knows how enjoyably it really isn't.  I know though that this fully grown man has more love to give then even he probably knows.  To any of his friends he is loved by them all and will be highly talked about with nothing but respect!  But is love from friends and relatives good enough?  Some may say it is, I personally feel that for 99% of this world cannot live without the intimacy of it.  People die for it for crying out loud. It is a very powerful thing, so powerful it can cause fear.  So he says why miss out on the chance from learning and having new adventures with others since that is how he feels when you are committed and tied down to just one person.  Oh but my dear the adventures and the journeys you can have with that one person will be better then anything you can ever dream!  I honestly cannot say I can live without the man I love, it would be a terrible lie.  There have been days that I felt I could walk right out that door and never look back with not a pain in my heart, but after the dust settled that would be a lie as well. I would probably curl up on my bed and stay there till my heart was as close to being healed as it could be.  To say my life would end would be a overstatement but hell it sure would feel like it for a very long time!  In the long run it would totally be worth the heartache when weighed against all the joy the love gave me. Love would surely out weigh the heartache by far!   Fear of the love ending and not following through would cause a bigger regret then falling in love and losing it!  Believe me I have gone through my share of mistakes and Love losses and even though there is one in particular I do regret all of it has brought me nothing but knowledge and wisdom along with a life filled with wonderful memories!  Never stop looking for that "true love" they do exist and will come when you least expect it! Never take it for granted, and live it to the fullest because you never know when it will depart ways with you, whether in death or just because of growing paths that split.

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