Friday, October 07, 2011

In the quiet words of the Virgin Mary "Come Again?"

    It has come to my attention the amount of misunderstanding that goes on in this world.  Its frustrating and aggravating that one comment can be taken to a new height of  meaning.  A lot of times instead of stopping to think or ask one what they may have meant can cause a great disaster.  In today's society majority of communication comes in the form of written words on a social site, i.e. Facebook or Twitter, or they come through your phone as a text message.  We forget that through these forms of contact sarcasm, anger, happiness, and concern cannot always be heard.  If anything they are normally misinterpreted and feelings have been greatly hurt as a result.  Things like emoticons have been a great help in this problem giving one the chance to show how their statement is meant to sound if they were right in front of us.  They have also helped in reassuring others that what they read is in fact they way they took it.  Sadly the options of emoticons is not always available.  I love to use them on my phone but the program my phone uses for them can only be seen by the products that made my phone. So if I were to use one that stated that my comment was meant as a joke but a person using a PC instead of an Apple only gets rectangles and ** in its place they will be most likely confused and misinterpret my joke there for resulting in being offended.  I have been juggling in my mind how on earth can these mishaps be corrected cause there is nothing more horrible then having an upset friend for my bad placing of sarcasm. My answer for now is to just avoid at all cost and to post only in a monotone to keep the confusion at bay. My husband always says that it is better to keep our mouth shut then to say something you have to end up explaining to someone.  I'm beginning to think hes right.  Course I would prefer a friend to ask for an explanation because they don't understand then for them to be hurt behind close doors and not allowing the problem to ever be solved.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Road Block

    Every now and then my brain feels like this Norman Rockwell painting.  I just cannot seem to think clearly or creatively.  My artistic side has been like this now for 6 years.  Even though I have had to urges to start sketching and painting again I just stair at the canvas or sketch pad with a blank stare.  I need to find some inspiration in my life or something close to it!  I think the last creative thing I painted was for my sister which she had framed and hung on her wall. You got to love your family members who will love your work with pride. Just like a mother with a her child who will put any art work they have done on the fridge.  When I was in high school my art teacher made it easy to have inspiration since it was all part of her job to give us new things to do.  Some times I wish I still had her around to give me a new project.  I just need to stop dreaming and start doing!  Anyone possibly have some ideas for inspirations for me I'm all ears.

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Our Past and the Baggage it Leaves in the Attic

     Baggage in our Attic is not always something we like to realize is there.  It has taken me awhile to even notice it was hiding up there and even longer for me to clear it out!  My past may not be as "horrible" or "tragic" as some others my have but it was still not a lovely past even though it was only 4 years of my life.   It has caused me issues that have made me paranoid and insecure.  I know struggle with the fear of no longer being loved, and  I sometimes miss interpret a cancellation as that person ditching me.  I know it sounds pathetic and slightly immature but it happens.  I am also an extremely jealous person thanks to my past.  Its funny how we never let certain things have an effect on us till we go through an experience.  Fear of rejection is in many of us. Even if we do have people around us who care and love us we still fear it.  Constantly looking for reassurance from them to know they will stand by us.  Even with the reassurance we still struggle with it like a disease.  It has brought me to tears at times.  These fears have also lead me to make some bad decisions in my life.  I still have to remember to think twice before going off my emotions and fears in choices I make.  This is apart of growing up, learning how to deal with this. Every day I need to remind myself to clean my Attic. On the days I don't, are the days I struggle with them and brings me tears and depression! First step to healing is the recognition to the problem!